Even after writing that oh-so-emotional letter I still can't seem to stop obsessing about Ryan. Hmm.... Seems I'll have to find another guy to obsess about soon. Or i'll ping him. Whatever is more heartbreaking/self destructive. I guess life's too short to do the logical thing (or so I say to convince myself).
The letter was the really hard for me. See, I haven't ever been easily able to express my emotions. But this blog has really helped me to be able to express myself emotionally and not go on suppressing the emotions. Life's too short to be embarrassed about anything (or so I say to convince myself) :) .