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sometimes, i just wonder if god is going to suddenly step out of somewhere and say freeze, you've been on candid camera your whole life! And then somehow, my life would be changed forever ........


i keep having this nightmare where ryan's parents are running after me, shouting, you turned our son gay .....


through i keep pretending otherwise, i wonder if i actually am going to find somebody ever .....


i never know what to say to people ....... at both happy and sad occasions ......


i sometimes get this overwhelming feeling that when i die, it'll be by the hands of a mob which is hunting and killing gay people ......