Sunday, January 13, 2013

Never Going To Leave You

I really can’t quit you, personal blogging. I get to do my most favourite activity: talk about myself at length without being interrupted by someone else. Shut up and publish all my terrible posts, blogger dot com.

I remember when I started blogging in December 2007. I was such a different person at that time. For one, I was only ugly fat and not morbidly obese like the present. Second, I wrote things here I couldn’t even admit to myself (eg: I liked British sitcoms! BUT BUT THEY WERE RACIST TO US TILL 1947?).

And of course, there was the community. I “met” a lot of people through the blog. Some, I’m still in touch with. Some I’m friends with. Some got freaked out by something I said and vice-versa. Some are lost in the past. Some have disappeared into the abyss of the internet. Some are getting married to their version of the anti-christ. It’s all good.

I hate to use these words because, REALLY?, but blogging also helped me to find a little bit of who I am. Turns out I wasn’t the broken shell of a human being being who was dead inside and wasn’t able to feel any emotion whatsoever. In reality, I was a broken shell of a human being who was dead inside and wasn’t able to feel any emotion whatsoever who also likes to write sentences who only he finds amusing! WHO’DA THUNK IT?

Nowadays, even though I do most of my blogging in my diary - because even I’m not that narcissistic to put so many banal things on the internet - it always feels good to come back here.

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I can’t believe I actually wrote the words I’m not afraid to be real in the last post. Ugh. Who am I? A contestant on MTV Road Rules? Such a fucking drama queen! What’s next? Shouting I’m not here to make friends! to random people on the street? (To be fair, I did say that once to a dick co-trainee during the second week of my first job so that wouldn’t be such a stretch. Can’t believe I was in denial about being gay at that time. I mean, HELLOOO!).

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Also, writing more blogposts in one week than I have written in three years? If it was still 2012 I would have made an ‘ARMAGEDDON MUST BE NIGH’ joke.


5 comments:

lemon said...

Glad to see you back! :)

Maybe I should take some inspiration and make a comeback as well!

DewdropDream said...

I miss your posts RWS :) I wish you'd write more and continue regaling us with your wit.

In the meantime, hope you've been keeping well. Much love from this corner of the world.

Basically Blah said...

Ah! All is right with my world again. RWS is back :) Blogosphere was missing some genuine wit!

Rambunctious WhipperSnapper said...

@lemon: Yes, you should. Let's get the old band back together again. :)

@DDD: Awww, right back at yaa, ddd. Lahv, lahv, lahv :)

@BB: Hahaha, thank you.

Rashmi Yadav said...

God! I missed you...
I kept coming here and checking if there was an update...
And voila! There is now :)
I am just a nobody on this big bad Internet world...but this 'Nobody' cherishes the other guy on the other side <3
Much love,
Blessed be!